Hi, I've been reading this website and forum for the past
few days now, having found it reminiscent of an introduction to Myers-Briggs nearly four years ago by an instructor in college. I feel that I have at least a basic grasp on socionics at this point, but nonetheless would like to discern whether or not I have correctly applied the classification system to myself by asking forum members to attempt to "type" me. While my initial opinion on the system is that it is still a protoscience of sorts, if it retains my interest for a length of time I would most certainly have an interest in striving to improve upon it, if only for my own personal utilization.
Anyway, I hope that through this post you will be able to get at least a small view of the way my personality operates for purposes of classification. It is a personal belief of mine that when it comes to things like this, everything is data. I don't expect that anyone can be correctly pidgeon-holed, but it's a start.
Firstly, I'll go ahead and state that I am assuredly introverted. I find personal interaction with most people to be both tiring and consequently annoying after about four hours, give or take. I am constantly introspecting, questioning my own motives and inner workings in even seemingly insignificant situations, unless distracted for a decent length of time by something mentally stimulating and enjoyable. Case-in-point, when typing the word "decent", I almost typed the word "descent", which reminded me of a song, which I went ahead and decided to open because I like it. I was aware of that process and thought to ask why. In fact I think to ask why I am currently typing this post in Notepad to post on the forum, realizing that nothing I am told will be definite and may even be dismissed by me if I find that it conflicts with certain views I have of myself on the grounds that either I have given you insufficient information, or you have misinterpreted it (note that I am not trying to discourage you here, haha).
This is the surface of introspection. Over the past few years, I have made a conscious effort to drag what I can of my social and moral programming to the surface and question it - and from there possibly discard or suppress it altogether. In fact my entire interest in socionics will ideally serve a greater goal of cutting away most of my (personally) undesirable aspects. The reason why is that I tend to have a very pessimistic view of human society and would like to interact with it as little as possible, striving instead to observe. I find that the species' suffering is ultimately rooted in an imposition of will in all things that would be best fixed by ceasing to will entirely, a resolution brought about by whatever effective route ensures the most complete success.
Regarding this imposition of will, I have a tendency to see and analyze its origins and results in others. This has brought me into great conflict with others at times online, resulting in multi-page debates about human nature and the nature of morality. The latter being something of which I am extremely critical, and
not for the sake of rationalizing personal actions when it is convenient, despite what I have been accused of in the past by at least one fool presumptuous enough to attempt to "educate" me on the "nature" of morality. It is because I link it directly with the imposition of will I mentioned above.
As for "real life" interactions, I am seldom in direct confrontation with others on the issues I mentioned above, due to situations frequently being entirely futile and/or certain to end with undesirable consequences. For example, I could most certainly press a "boss" at "work" (I do so hate both of those terms and all of their implications) on what I perceive as the reality behind their world and the entire system they support, but I would only be met with illogical responses and undesirable consequences, insofar as my ability to financially support myself is concerned.
Now something to note about my nature is that even in thinking of such a conflict with a presumed authority figure enrages me. I absolutely loathe the concept of hierarchy, as should be expected from my finding imposition of will to be undesirable. The concept of freedom under government is laughable to me, because it is merely relative. I would without hesitation "remove" anyone who seeks control over others without their complete consent. I know that this is an unconscious reflex to deal with a perceived threat, and ironically a sort of imposition of will on its own, but I will say that at least it is "defensive" in nature.
I am difficult to get motivated, slow to start a project, but work well under pressure. All the same, projects with deadlines leave me with a bitter taste, because I always feel I could have done more with sufficient time. I tend to plan projects systematically and according to my best information, but all the same prefer to keep as many options open as possible, should the unexpected occur. By best information I mean the most reasonable and complete. I will generally take function over form, except in cases where form matters at least half as much.
I presently work retail, being racked with indecision by any sort of other career, as well as a reluctance to indulge in the system at all. I have an interest in computers, games, other nerdy stuff, armoured combat, the middle ages, and also ancient China (thanks, Three Kingdoms XD). I hate repetition and mindless tasks, and so hate retail.
I am conscious of my appearance, carefully choosing appealing clothing even if I'm just going out to buy like one or two things. I am even moreso aware of my hair, constantly ensuring it's how I like, and frequently messing with it. By frequently I mean all the ****in' time. People have mistaken this for nervousness, however it's more just my own quirk of perfectionism. If it's windy or rainy outside, I would just as soon not have anything to do with it until it's less hostile to my appearance. As a result, I get compliments from people I don't even know, which is comforting but leaves me unsure of how to respond.
Such social situations often make me feel awkward, but within my short span of extraverted energy I am usually able to craft responses carefully with all the effectiveness of a Sith Lord. I don't think of this as sociopathic, but as a coping mechanism.
I have a girlfriend of about three years whom I love dearly. We share many common interests and a few ways of thinking, though she is more moderately inclined than I. She also has the tendency to blame herself for things that I would blame others for. We are very affectionate physically, though often lacking sexually, much to both of our frustration. Her personality is very comfortable and feels compatible, but I occasionally find myself wanting more. Most often, neither of us naturally decides upon anything without asking the opinion of the other, only to be met with more indecision.
Example:
"Want to go out to eat?"
"If you want to."
"Where do you want to go?"
"I dunno, where do you want to go?"
"Hmm...are you hungry for anything in particular?"
"Nope."
"Okay, hmm..."
We do eventually decide, of course, and usually one of us
does have at least a minor preference, which is immediately noticed by the other when even slightly "leaked". I find that we both seek to fulfill the other's tastes, unless one of us really isn't in the mood for it, in which case a compromise is quickly reached with next to zero conflict. The whole process strikes me as both sweet and bothersome at the same time.
Now against my better judgment, I think I will cut this off here, fully knowing there are things that could be added that weren't. Also I'm hungry. However I suppose I can rationalize this by the fact that no typed "essay" will ever be conclusive of an individual's personality in the same way that no typing system will ever be comprehensive enough within my lifetime to account for all personality traits. However I do find it interesting and think it may be worth exploring and tinkering with.
Based on my current understanding of the system, I could fall into the perimeters of INTx, but would like to hear other opinions. Ask if I left anything necessary out.
Thanks.
Lol type me plox
cheers
